He Belongs To Me by Patt

He Belongs to Me - Patt

Jim found himself singing along with the songs on the radio these days. He was very happy. He had decided to get a fantastic gift for Blair for Christmas and tell him how he felt about him. As in, he was totally in love with his Guide.

He sat at the stop light singing along with the song, happy to be alive.

Have a holly, jolly Christmas;
It's the best time of the year
I don't know if there'll be snow,
but have a cup of cheer.
Have a holly, jolly Christmas;
And when you walk down the street
Say Hello to friends you know
and everyone you meet.

When the car behind him honked, he knew he needed to be doing less singing and thinking about Blair and more concentrating on his driving.

He pulled into the parking space in front of O’Conner’s Jewelry, parked and walked into the store.

“Morning, Jim. How’s your dad?” Mr. O’Conner asked.

“He’s doing good, sir. I’m glad to see you’re doing well. I’ll tell my Dad you asked about him.” Jim began to look at the necklaces they had for men.

“What are you looking for, Jim? Maybe I could help narrow down the search.” Mr. O’Conner probably wouldn’t understand, but Jim really didn’t care.

“I need a man’s necklace with a pendant on it, that has some type of wolf.” Jim hoped that this would be enough to get him started.

“I just got this one in, you might be interested. It’s fairly expensive, but very nice. And don’t forget you get a discount.”

Jim looked at the pendant and smiled. He had found exactly what he was looking for. It was beautiful. The medal type pendant had the forest on the background with a wolf howling 3D. It was just perfect. “This one is it, now I just need to find the right chain for it, could you help me do that?”

The two men looked at every single chain that was in the store and finally Jim decided on one that seemed like it was made for the pendant. “Can I have something inscribed on it?” Jim asked when he thought of it.

“Sure, what do you need put on it.” Mr. O’Conner said.

“I need something simple, but nice. Any suggestions?” Jim asked.

“How about Merry Christmas 2006?”

“No, I wanted something personal.” Jim offered.

“Well, how about to my best friend?” O’Conner didn’t know what type of relationship this was, so he was just guessing.

“I’m thinking about asking him to be in my life. I’ve known him for five years now and I want to move it to the next level. What do you think?” Jim stood back and waited for Mr. O’Conner to flip out. But he didn’t.

“How about Forever Yours, Jim? Would that work?”

“That would be perfect. When can I pick this up?” Jim was bouncing with happiness at choosing something his Guide might actually like. Last year he had gotten him gloves, scarf and a new coat. Blair had seemed almost disappointed when he opened them. Jim didn’t understand then, but he did now. Blair had wanted Jim to make that first move. Jim truly believed that Blair had the same feelings for him that Jim had for Blair.

“You can pick it up in a week. Our engraver is gone for a few days. Is that all right?”

“That’s perfect. It’s a Christmas present, so I have plenty of time. Thank you for helping me choose just the right thing.” Jim moved down to the end of the counter where Mr. O’Conner was ringing up his purchase. Jim almost fell on the floor when he found out how much it cost, but he reminded himself of how much Blair meant to him and that helped calm himself down.

Jim left the store in a very good mood. He got into the truck and another Christmas carol was playing and he began to sing along with it.

Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle bell rock
Jingle bells swing and jingle bells ring
Snowing and blowing up bushels of fun
Now the jingle hop has begun

Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle bell rock
Jingle bells chime in jingle bell time
Dancing and prancing in Jingle Bell Square
In the frosty air.

Someone honked at him for pulling into traffic too slowly, but he didn’t care. Nothing was going to ruin this perfect day.

When Jim got to the Bullpen, Blair was already there working on some files. “It’s about time you showed up, you slacker.” The younger man loved teasing the old guy.

“I had some personal things to attend to, but I’m all yours now. What have we got?” Jim sat down at his desk and turned on his computer.

“We’ve got to ask some more questions at the crime scene for that robbery on 5th street. Did you want to do that now?”

“Sure.” Jim got up and grabbed both his coat and Blair's and held it out for Blair to get his arms into it.

“What are you in such a good mood for?” Blair asked.

“I don’t know, but I’ve been singing Christmas carols all morning long.” Jim smiled as he put his jacket on. “Let me tell Simon where we’re going.”

“That would be good.” Blair teased and went and waited by the elevator.

When Jim joined him at the elevator, Conner walked over and said, “I took a message for you this morning. I hope I wrote it all down properly since he talked just like you. A mile a minute.” She handed the note to Blair and watched his face light up.

“Oh man, this is terrific. Jim, it’s from my old friend Jonah Mitchell. We went to college together and he’s in town for a few weeks. Do you mind if I have him over for dinner a few nights?” Blair was bouncing with excitement.

“Sure, that’s fine.”

“Have a good day, you two.” Conner called as she left the two men getting into the elevator.

“Thanks, Conner.” Blair called out as the door of the lift shut. “Wow, I’m so fucking excited. I haven’t seen him in about ten years.”

“Well, he must have been keeping track if he knew where you were.” Jim was just making conversation; he could care less about Jonah Mitchell.

“We’ve been writing to each other for years, so he knew that I was a cop, but I never expected him to come back to Cascade. Can I have him over tonight?”

“Blair, it’s your house too, you can do whatever you want. You don’t have to ask me. I’ll go hang out with Simon or something.” Jim figured that he would let them catch up on old times.

“No… I want you to stay and visit with him. He’s a really nice guy. He’s a college professor now. You’ll like him.”

Wanna make a bet? “Sure, I’ll stay and meet your friend. Thank you for asking me to stay.”

The day flew by and Jim and Blair found another person that they could question and before long they had enough to arrest someone they had wanted for the crime from the beginning. Things were looking up.

When Jim was driving home that night, he was singing with the carols again and happy to be alive.

Dashing through the snow
On a one-horse open sleigh,
Over the fields we go,
Laughing all the way;
Bells on bob-tail ring,
making spirits bright,
What fun it is to ride and sing
A sleighing song tonight
Jingle bells, jingle bells,
jingle all the way!
O what fun it is to ride
In a one-horse open sleigh

A day or two ago,
I thought I'd take a ride,
And soon Miss Fanny Bright
Was seated by my side;
The horse was lean and lank;
Misfortune seemed his lot;
He got into a drifted bank,
And we, we got upsot.
Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells,
Jingle all the way!
What fun it is to ride
In a one-horse open sleigh.

He was beginning to worry about himself being in such a good mood, but he only laughed to himself and drove the rest of the way home with a smile on his face.

When he arrived, he got out and was on his way up when he heard that Jonah was already in the loft. Oh great… He listened as he walked up the stairs and heard;

“Blair, I just can’t believe how gorgeous you look. It’s like you didn’t even age.”

“Jonah, believe me I’ve aged. But thank you for saying that.”

Jim opened up the front door and walked in. “Hey Chief.”

“Hey Jim, this is my good friend, Jonah Mitchell. He’s here from Denver for three weeks.” Blair was bouncing with excitement so Jim knew he had to be nice. Jim put his hand out and said, “It’s good to meet you, Jonah.”

“It’s good to meet you too. Any friend of Blair’s is a friend of mine.” Jonah was trying too hard and Jim instantly was on alert.

“Blair, let me take you out to dinner tonight.” Jonah said casually.

“Oh sorry I can’t. This is my night to cook and I told Jim we would have dinner here tonight.” Blair explained.

“Hey, don’t think you have to cook because of me. I’m a big boy; I know how to cook and everything.” Jim was almost irritated.

“See, Blair, Jim doesn’t mind if we go out and catch up.” Jonah didn’t see the dirty look that Jim sent his way, but Blair did.

“Okay, we’ll go out. Jim, would you like me to bring you something back?” Blair asked nicely.

“No, I’m going to have leftovers from last night’s dinner. Thank you anyhow, Chief.”

As soon as they left Jim started worrying. He had seen the look on Jonah’s face far too many times. It was a look of a lover. He and Blair must have been lovers from way back. Sighing, Jim started making his dinner.


“Hey this restaurant is really nice, Blair.”

“It’s one of Jim and my favorites. I was hoping that you liked Greek food.” Blair said.

The waiter came up and took their drink order and their dinner order because they already knew what they wanted.

“So, Blair, what have you been doing with your life besides screwing it up?” Jonah asked truthfully.

“Excuse me?” Blair was on the defensive.

“You would have been one of the greatest teachers in history, and what are you instead? A cop. Why, Blair?”

“Because while I was doing my thesis I realized I loved police work. It’s a great job and I’m thrilled to be doing it. It’s one big rollercoaster ride, believe me.”

“So you would never leave your job, even if you had a better offer?” Jonah asked.

“No offer would be as good as the one I have. I love working with Jim and being by his side for all things. Why who has an offer?”

“Well, actually I’m coming back to Cascade next month and I was talking to the dean and he said he’s had many kids ask about you and he thought about asking you back.”

“Nah, I’m happy where I am.” Blair assured him.

“But how about our personal life, would you consider seeing me again?” The million dollar question was finally asked.

Blair sighed and said, “I think we make better friends then we ever did lovers. Why don’t we just keep it like that for now? Maybe some day we’ll move it up to another level, but not right now.”

“Are you seeing someone else right now?” Jonah asked.

“No, but I have someone in mind. I just want to think about it for a while. I hope you understand that we’re just going to be good friends.”

“We were always the best of friends, Blair. I’m glad of that.” Jonah was very disappointed but he didn’t let it show. He wasn’t going to go down without a fight. He was going to win Blair over if it took him forever.

“So what are you doing in Cascade for the holidays?” Blair knew that his family lived back in Denver.

“I wanted to spend Christmas with you, that‘s if it’s all right.” Jonah decided he would let Blair think he was making all of the decisions.

“Well, I spend it with Jim and he’s used to just the two of us, so I better beg off on that.”

“How about if we just spend time together when you’re not with Jim? I won’t interfere with your holiday with him.”

“Okay, sounds good. What do we have planned for the week?” Blair asked wishing he had something more to tell Jonah because he sure didn’t want to give the impression that he was interested in him. Blair wished that he could say that Jim was his, but alas it didn’t look like it would ever happen.

They continued talking and just caught up on each others lives. It was a very nice evening.


Jim was pacing in front of the balcony doors. Where were they? They had been gone for four hours. It didn’t take four hours to have dinner.

As he paced he saw them drive up and went over and sat down on the sofa and flicked the television on. When the two men walked through the door, Jim was watching the news.

“Hey Jim, anything going on with the news?” Blair asked.

Jim turned around and smiled at him and said, “No, nothing to speak of anyhow. Do you remember that we have court tomorrow?”

“Yeah, Jonah has never been in a court room, so he wanted to hang out with us and see what we have to do. Is that all right?”

“Why wouldn’t it be all right? It’s a free country, Sandburg, he can go wherever he wants to.” Jim got up to get ready for bed.

“Hey Blair, do you think I could sleep on your sofa tonight? I called the place I usually stay and they didn’t have an opening for three more nights. If you and Jim don’t mind, I could just hang out here.”

“Do you mind, Jim?” Blair asked candidly.

“Whatever, just clean up the mess in the morning, Chief.” Jim walked into the bathroom for his nightly routine and got ready for bed. He decided he would step this up a notch. He took his shirt and his jeans off so that all he had left on was his boxers. When he came walking out, Blair wasn’t surprised, but Jonah was. He glared at Jim as Jim walked by. Jim suddenly realized that this was going to be war. And poor Blair didn’t seem to even notice.

“You’re in pretty good shape for a guy your age, aren’t you?” Jonah asked and Blair just looked at him like he had lost his brains.

“Jonah, that was rude. Jim isn’t old at all.”

“Sorry, I didn’t realize the age thing was a problem for you.” Jonah continued.

“It’s not a problem for me. I keep in shape because I’m a cop. I have to be in good shape.” Jim started walking up the stairs and realized that Jonah was in good shape too and he was a lot younger. This wasn’t going to be easy.

“Night, Chief.” Jim called out.

“Night, Jim. See you in the morning. Sleep well.”

Jim heard Blair making up the sofa for Jonah to sleep and then heard him say, “Why don’t you take my bed and I’ll sleep here?”

“Or we could just share the bedroom. It’s a big enough bed, don’t you think?” Jonah made it sound like it was just friends, but Jim knew differently.

“No, that’s okay, Jonah. You take the bedroom and I’ll take the sofa. Let me show you where everything is.” Blair was being the ever hospitable host.

Jim was glad that Blair was sleeping out in the living room so he could keep track of the weasel. Yes, Joni Mitchell was a weasel of the worst kind. Jim knew that his name was Jonah and not Joni, but he was going to call him that anyway.

He listened to Blair as he meditated and then went to bed. He fell asleep once he heard the soft breathing of his Guide.

Jim woke up and heard Jonah walking up to the sofa. Jim got up and started down the stairs. “Problem?”

Stooping to an all time low, he said, “No, I had a bad dream and wanted to talk to Blair about it.”

Blair woke up and said, “Jonah, what’s wrong?”

“I had a bad dream and I was hoping we could talk. I can’t sleep now.” Jonah was acting like he was scared, but Jim knew better.

“Come on over and sit down with me. We’ll talk. Jim, you go back to sleep. We’ll be fine. Thank you for watching out for Jonah.” Blair wasn’t getting this at all.

“No problem, Chief, if you need me give a shout.” Jim walked slowly up the stairs and couldn’t believe how fast Blair had fallen for Jonah’s dream line. “Oh Chief, don’t forget that we have court in the morning.”

“I won’t, Mom.” Blair teased, but Jim took it as an insult.


When Jim woke up in the morning he walked downstairs and Blair and Jonah were sleeping on the sofa. Jonah was all over Blair. Jim walked over and thumped him on the back of the head.

“What?” A confused Jonah woke up.

“Get off of the sofa. You have a bed in the other room.” Jim was so pissed off he couldn’t see straight.

“We were only talking, geeze.” Jonah got up and Blair woke at the same time.

He looked around and wondered why everyone was standing around the sofa and said, “Did I miss something?”

Jim wasn’t surprised when the big fat whiner opened his mouth and told on him. “Your friend and roommate thumped me on the head to wake me up.”

Blair looked over at Jim and tried not to smile. “Jim, why did you do that?”

“I forgot his name and knew he wanted to go to court with us, so I thought he better get up.” Jim figured that was as good a lie as any.

“Speaking of that, I better get up and ready too.” Blair walked by both of them and Jim realized he wasn’t in trouble. He smiled evilly over at Jonah. Jonah smiled just as evilly back. The war had definitely started.

Everyone took their turn in the shower and were all ready to go by 7:30. “I’ll meet you there, Chief.” Jim said hoping that the idiot would drive his own car too.

“I’ll ride with you, Blair and we’ll come back together, okay?” Jonah smiled at Blair and then at Jim.

Jim hated this man. Truly hated him and he was fairly certain that he wanted to kill him and ask his friends to help hide the body.

“Yeah, you can ride with me. We’ll see you there, Jim.” Blair and Jonah got into the car and started off down the road.

In Jim’s truck, Christmas music was playing but instead of singing the usual lyrics, he changed them somewhat.

Come they told me
pa rum pum pum pum
A brand new prick to see,
pa rum pum pum pum
My finest punch I bring
pa rum pum pum pum
To kill before the Guide
pa rum pum pum pum
rum pum pum pum
rum pum pum pum
So to pound on Him
pa rum pum pum pum,
when I punch.

Little Baby
pa rum pum pum pum
He is a big baby,
pa rum pum pum pum
I have a gift to bring
pa rum pum pum pum
That's fit to give the Guide
pa rum pum pum pum
rum pum pum pum
rum pum pum pum
Shall I kill for you!
pa rum pum pum
with my gun.

Jim shook his head and tried to keep from singing anymore Christmas songs until it was just he and Blair. Then he sang good Christmas songs.


Once in the courtroom, Jim sat down and waited for Blair and Jonah to arrive. Simon sat down next to him and Conner on the other side of him.

“Where’s Sandy, Jimbo?”

“Will you please stop calling me Jimbo? He’ll be here in just a few minutes. He’s bringing a friend to witness first hand how boring court is.” Jim explained.

Conner’s face lit up and said, “Oh who is she? Someone we haven’t met yet?”

“For your information, she’s a he. He’s an old friend from college and he’s here for a couple of weeks, I guess.”

Simon looked over at Jim and said, “Well as long as he gets here before the judge I don’t care who the fuck he brings.”

Conner started to laugh and Jim glared at her. She quickly stopped and tried to figure out why Jimbo was in such a bad mood. Then she saw Blair and his friend walk into the courtroom and Conner knew what was wrong. He’s jealous, is what he is. With good reason, that guy is cute.

Blair and Jonah sat in the row ahead of them and Blair turned around and said, “Simon and Conner, this is my friend Jonah Mitchell. Jonah, this is my boss and one of my best friends.”

Jonah put his hand out and both of them shook it. “Glad to meet any friend of Blair’s. I can’t wait to see how exciting this is going to be.”

“Joni has never been to a courtroom before.” Jim said snidely.

It took everything within Conner to keep from bursting out in laughter. She loved that Jim was making fun of his name and that Jim was so jealous.

“It’s Jonah, Jim. I don’t like nicknames.”

“Oh sorry, you name is so much like Joni Mitchell I just forgot. I’ll try and see that it doesn’t happen again.”

As soon as Jonah turned around Conner elbowed Jim and whispered, “I’m going to get you for this one.”

Jim smiled over at her and whispered, “Sorry.”

“I guess your friend Jim and Conner are an item, I would say.” Jonah said.

“What? Jim and Conner? Never. They can’t even be in the same room together usually, why do you say that?”

“They were just making goo goo eyes at each other and I heard them whispering.” Jonah whispered.

“Well, you’re wrong. They’re just really good friends.” Blair tried to explain but everyone was called to rise for the Judge.

After about two hours, they finally got called up to testify and it was boring as hell. But Jonah refused to let Jim win. He waited until Jim said, “Finally we’re out of here, that was the most boring thing in the world.” And then Jonah said, “Oh I thought it was interesting. You did a really good job, Blair.”

Blair smiled and said, “Thank you.” Then Blair glared at Jim.

Conner whispered into Jim’s ear, “You’re going to have to stay on your toes with this one. He’s got designs on our dear Sandy. Don’t you let him win.”

“I won’t, I promise.” Jim answered and smiled because he wasn’t fooling anyone. Hell, Simon probably knew what was going on.

At that moment Simon walked up to him and said, “You know, Jim, if you want to get further along in this game, you’re going to have to pick up the pace. Ask Blair if he wants to trim the tree with you tonight and listen to Christmas carols.”

“What? Does everyone know what I’m trying to do?” Jim asked shocked.

Simon replied, “Everyone but that blind Guide of yours. He’s stupid today.”

“Don’t call him stupid, he just likes Jonah as a friend.” Jim didn’t want bad things being said about Blair.

“Jimbo, I don’t know how to tell you this, but there is serious history going on with those two. You’re going to have to step up the fight.”

“Why do I feel like I’ve lost the war already?” Jim said sullenly.

“Because you’re not trying hard enough. Make him a good dinner and trim the tree tonight. That’ll be fun. Even if Jonah comes, he won’t have your history.” Simon advised.

Blair came walking over to Simon and said, “Sir, could I take a few personal days off?”

Simon looked over at the stoic looking man standing next to Conner and finally said, “I guess that would be all right. How many days and when?”

“I was thinking today, and the next three days and make it a four day weekend.” Blair said casually.

“Sure, go ahead. Jim, did you need to talk to your partner?” Simon was giving him a hint.

“Chief, do you want to trim the tree tonight? I decided that we could use an artificial one instead of killing a tree. I feel like decorating the loft, what do you think?” Jim asked.

Blair got a huge smile on his face and answered, “That sounds great. We’ll be there by 6:00 tonight. Thanks, Jim.”

“It’s nothing.” Jim said walking away from the two men.

“Bye, Jim.” Jonah called out sarcastically.


Jim put the tree up and was waiting on Blair when finally at 7:00 the door opened. “Sorry, man. We were at an art gallery of a friend and time got away from us. The tree looks like it’s real. Where did you get it?”

Jim stared at him like he was from outer space and answered, “Home Depot. They had a sale.”

“Are all of the ornaments up here already?” Blair asked.

Jim got up and put the music on and said, “Yup, everything is ready. Did you eat?”

“Yeah, we ate on the way home. Have you eaten?” Blair asked.

“I love this song.” Jim said suddenly as Jingle Bell Rock started.

Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle bell rock
Jingle bells swing and jingle bells ring
Snowing and blowing up bushels of fun
Now the jingle hop has begun

Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle bell rock
Jingle bells chime in jingle bell time
Dancing and prancing in Jingle Bell Square
In the frosty air.

What a bright time, it's the right time
To knock his block away
Jingle bell time is a swell time
To go slapping him on the side of his head.
Giddy-up jingle horse, pick up your feet
Jingle around the clock
Mix and a-mingle in the jingling feet
That's the jingle bell,
That's the jingle bell,
Kick him in the jingle bell cock.

“Hey Jim, that’s the first time I’ve ever seen or heard you singing along with a Christmas carol, I couldn’t hardly hear you though. Want to start it again and we can all sing while we trim the tree?” Blair asked.

“Nah, if you hear it once, you’ve heard it enough.”

They started decorating the tree, which was fun anyway because each ornament Blair picked up had a history lesson to go along with it. He said who had given it to him and why for every single one of them. Jim remembered that he had bought something for Blair and he said, “I have a new ornament for you for this year, Blair.”

Jim went and got it and handed it to Blair. It was a big teddy bear that had Blair written on its belly. It was very cutesy and suddenly Jim was worried about how that might look to Blair.

“This is darling, Jim. It’s from that same designer that you got last year. This is wonderful. Thank you.” Blair got up and gave him a hug.

Not to be outdone, Jonah stood up and said, “I have a little gift for you. Just something I saw when I came up here.” He handed over a small box and Jim’s heart was beating very hard.

Blair opened it up and said, “Oh wow. This is beautiful. I can’t accept this, Jonah.” Blair looked long and hard at the gift.

“Well, you have to. It’s engraved. Read it.” Jonah helped Blair turn the pendant over so he could see what it said. It read; ‘Best Friends for life’.

Jim just stood there staring. It was the same damn pendant he had picked out. How could he have known, unless he was following him around. “Where did you get that?” Jim finally asked.

“At a jewelry store called O’Conner’s. Do you like it Blair?” Jonah asked.

“I love it, what’s not to love, but I feel odd about accepting it.” Blair said quietly.

Jonah smiled at him and said, “Don’t feel bad about it. It’s a friendship gift. Nothing more, nothing less.”

Jim just watched this man and knew suddenly that he had been followed for some time. How else would he have known what Jim got.

Jim started putting more ornaments on the tree and was getting sadder and sadder. If he called Jonah out on this, he would only look paranoid and delusional. There was nothing he could do.

“Want to put the necklace on?” Jonah asked Blair.

“No, not right now. I’ll put it on later. Jim, we’re going to the new museum exhibit tomorrow, did you want to go with?” Blair wanted to at least invite his best friend.

“No, someone has to work, Chief. Simon would frown on us both taking time off right now. Especially over the holidays.” Jim answered.

“Let us go to the exhibit tomorrow and then I’ll go to work the following day and catch up. How does that sound?” Blair asked.

Jim gave a little smile and said, “That’s fine. Thanks, Chief.”

Jim went upstairs and called the jewelry company and asked for Mr. O’Conner.

“Yes, this is Mr. O’Conner.”

“Hi, this is Jim Ellison, I bought that pendant and chain the other day? Well, have you already engraved it?”

“No, I haven’t engraved it yet because our man is out of town. Did you want me to change it?”

“No, someone else bought him the very same necklace and gave it to him tonight, so I was wondering if you could help me find something else that you think he would love.”

“There was a man in here and asked about some things and he bought the same thing as you did. Do you think it was him?” Mr. O’Conner wasn’t a dummy.

“I think so. He must have been following me. I’m sorry to drag you into this.”

“It’s all right, Jim. Don’t worry about it. For another five hundred dollars, I have the perfect gift for you and it’s one of a kind. It’s a silver and bronze sculpture of a wolf. It’s beautiful. I would be glad to hold it for you.”

“Is it huge, because he wouldn’t want it if it was.” Jim was thinking about spending another five hundred dollars too.

“No, Jim, it’s fairly small. Very exquisite.”

“I’ll take it. Please box it and wrap it for me and don’t tell anyone in the store that I bought it. I’ll pick it up on Christmas eve if that’s all right with you.” Jim felt a little better about it now.

“You won’t be sorry, Jim. He’s going to love it. I’ll see you on Christmas Eve and we’ll settle the difference up then.” Mr. O’Conner really liked Jim and wanted this to work out for him.

“Thank you, sir. We’ll see you then. Bye.” Jim hung up the phone and went back downstairs.

Blair smiled at Jim and said, “Were you talking to yourself up there or were you on the phone?”

“I was on the phone. I had to call a friend of mine. The tree looks great. I think we have enough on it. Although, there might be room for one last item.” Jim pulled a box out from behind him and said, “Here is another for your collection, Chief.”

Blair opened it and it was a 1959 Harley Davidson Ornament. It was beautiful. Blair already had four Harley Davidson ones, but he wanted all of them. “Man, this is great, Jim. Where did you find it? I’ve looked everywhere.”

“You can get them on Ebay. I saw them one day, but I didn’t know you collected them or I would have gotten you some.” Jonah was tired of being excluded from the conversation.

“Is that where you got it, Jim? Ebay?” Blair asked.

“Yes, I was bidding against a hog and I barely got it.” Jim said with a smile. He knew that Blair liked his ornament.

“Whatever you do, don’t get rid of the boxes.” Jonah said “They lose value if they aren’t in a box.”

“I know that, Jonah.” Blair said sounding a little irritated.

“So are we still on for tomorrow?” Jonah wondered aloud.

“Jim, do you mind if I go and then come in later?” Blair didn’t want to take advantage.

“Maybe I’ll call Simon and go with you two. It sounds like fun.” Jim said making Jonah glare at him.

“That would be so cool, I would have my two best friends with me.” Blair went in the kitchen to get them all a beer.

“Let me find you a hotel room for tonight, Jonah. I don’t want Blair to have to sleep on the sofa anymore than he has to.”

“I can find my own hotel room, Jimbo.” Jonah growled.

“Then do it. I would suggest now would be a good time and I’ll drop you off.” Jim stood up to get his beer from Blair as he came around the corner.

“Jim wants me to find a hotel room, so I better get busy and do that.” Jonah was trying to sound pitiful, but it wasn’t really working.

“Hey man, there’s a hotel down the road that’s fairly cheap. Call them. The number is on the phone. I keep it for my mom and others that have come through.” Blair was being his usual helpful self.

Jonah called and got a room and asked Blair, “Could you take me over there?”

“Well, sure I can.” Blair said with a smile and got up to take him. “Jim, I haven’t drank any of my beer yet, so I’m okay to drive.”

“Good thinking, Chief.”

So while Blair took Jonah over to the hotel, Jim made up some brownies and got the hot cocoa started. He figured that would be better than a beer anyhow.


“I don’t think Jim likes me.”

Blair laughed and said, “He does, he’s just moody. He’ll get used to you. And he’s a lot of fun once you get used to him.”

“Well, maybe I shouldn’t go tomorrow if he’s going.”

“Jonah, stop being a brat. He’s going and you’re going. I’m not going to have to choose which one is staying home. Get a grip.”

Come on in with me and have a drink before you leave again.” Jonah was whining.

“No, I need to go home and finish the tree with Jim. I’ll see you first thing in the morning. Sleep well.” And just like that Blair left Jonah. Jonah felt like he had lost the battle, but he wasn’t going to give up yet.


Blair smelled brownies as soon as he walked into the building and knew somehow that Jim had made them for him. It was a very cold night out, well, it was winter after all, but still it was damp and cold. Brownies sounded so good and the only thing that would make it more perfect would be if Jim made his infamous hot chocolate.

He walked into the loft and smiled when he saw Jim pouring hot chocolate into the steaming mugs. “Hey Chief, you’re just in time. I made up your favorite dessert. Sit down and have some of the cocoa.”

“Jim, this is great. Did you call Simon yet?” Blair took a bite of the brownies and said, “Yum.”

“Yes, I called him and he told me to have fun. As far as the brownies go, I had them in the freezer and I just nuked them to heat them up. I’m a lazy baker.” Jim smiled as Blair reached for his second one.

“Thank you again for the ornaments. I really liked the teddy bear one too. Did you find it at that same store that you and I went to that time?”

“Yeah, I found it there and then I found the other on Ebay, so I knew they would make you happy. You’re easy to buy for, Chief.”

“Can I ask you a question?” Blair waited to see what Jim would say.

Jim smiled and said, “You know you can always ask me anything.”

“Have you ever been interested in someone that isn’t interested in you? And if so, were you afraid to bring it up or anything?”

“Chief, he’s interested. Would that make you happy?”

“Ten years ago, maybe, but today, I find him a little boring. And he’s whiny. He thinks you don’t like him.”

“Well, he’s smarter than he looks, then.” Jim said with a laugh.

“Why don’t you like him?”

“I don’t know, there is something about him that bugs me. I’m sorry.” Jim didn’t want to ruin things for Blair, but all was fair in love and war.

“Well, tomorrow is going to be fun and I’m going to ask you to be nice to him.”

Jim nodded and answered, “Okay.”

The evening flew by and before long Jim was lying in bed singing Christmas songs in his head.

Knock the head of stupid Jonah
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la
'Tis the season to deball him
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la
Don we now our gay apparel
Fa-la-la, la-la-la, la-la-la.
Troll is another name for Jonah
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la.

See the blazing Jonah on fire.
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la
Slap the face and punch the stomach.
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la
Follow me in merry measure.
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la
While I tell of kick ass treasure.
Fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la

Jim never did finish the song. He was too busy sleeping.


Jim, Blair and Jonah all went to the Museum the following day. There was a display of Ancient Egypt findings. Jim knew he was going to be just a little bit bored after an hour or so, but he owed it to Blair to keep up the good front.

“Wow, the museum has changed a lot in 10 years, hasn’t it, Blair?” Jonah started the conversation off.

“Yes, mostly due to Jim’s dad. He donated a whole bunch of money for this find. So we should all thank him when we get home.” Blair said and then he looked across the room and saw William Ellison standing there staring at all of them. Blair smiled and said, “Look who’s here.”

Jim just cringed when he saw it was his dad. He couldn’t take his dad and the museum in one day. He just couldn’t. “Hi Dad.”

“Hi, Jimmy, what do you think of the show?”

“It’s great so far, but we just got here, so haven’t had a chance to check it out yet.”

Jonah said, “Hi, I’m Jonah Mitchell and I’m a friend of Blair’s. And you are?”

William looked strangely at Jim and Blair and then answered, “I’m William Ellison, Jimmy is my son.”

“Well, Blair and I will wander off and do our own thing so you two can have some time together.”

“That would be very nice.” William said.

Jim realized that that little fucker knew that Jim’s dad was going to be here and why did he know that? Why did this man know things about Jim that he didn’t know about Jonah?

As the two younger men walked off, William said, “It’s very nice to see Blair again. He has been really nice about us working our problems out. And it was nice to see him with a friend.”

“Why? You don’t think I’m a good enough friend, Dad?”

“Jimmy, what are you talking about? I’m talking about Blair and that nice young man. I think they might be a couple.”

“No, they aren’t a couple yet, Dad. I was hoping to spend some time with Blair today.” Jim realized as soon as it was out of his mouth, he was being rude.

“What’s wrong, son? You can talk to me about anything. I mean that.”

“Believe me; I can’t talk to you about this.” Jim just went to the next display and pretended he was paying attention.

“You’re interested in Blair?” William was pleasantly surprised.

“Why are you saying it so casually?”

“Well, Mike O’Conner told me the other day that you had someone of the same gender in mind. I just never thought it would be Blair.”

“Well, who in the hell did you think it was?” Jim couldn’t believe how well his father was taking this.

“I didn’t know and I was hoping that you would talk to me about it, but I figured you didn’t feel comfortable enough with me to say anything.” William was glad they were talking.

“I don’t see Blair.” Jim said looking around.

“He’s getting some punch, I just saw him. I don’t think he’s interested, Jimmy. So did you buy the necklace that Mike told me about?”

“I know this is going to sound bizarre, Dad, but I picked it out, paid for it and was going to pick it up next week because it needed to be engraved, but Jonah showed up at the house with one identical to the one I bought and gave it to Blair. We were supposed to be together today, but suddenly you’re here. Is there a reason you came?”

“First of all, I agree with Mike that someone was watching and following you. Keep on your toes, Jimmy. And the reason I’m here is because someone called and said they were calling for Blair and he wanted me to meet you here today. I would say you have someone watching your life pretty closely and you better be careful.”

“I don’t understand why he knows who I am, when I have no clue as to who he is.”

“Just be careful.” William looked up and saw Blair standing next to him and said, “So are you enjoying the display?”

“I’m loving it. I’m sure that Jim is bored out of his mind, but it’s great that we’re all here together.”

William smiled at him and said, “I would love to take you and Jimmy out for dinner as soon as we’re done here.”

“That’s really nice, but I’m sort of babysitting.” Blair laughed but looked a little tired of the gig.

Jonah showed up and said, “I was over there talking to you and you weren’t there.”

“Listen, Jonah, after this, I’m going somewhere with Jim’s dad. So I’ll see you tomorrow or the next day. Okay?”

“Oh sure, I’ll just eat dinner alone.” Jonah tried to look as pitiful as he could, but William wasn’t buying it.

So they all walked together through the entire museum and finally at about 4:30 William said, “Well boys, I get hungry these days earlier, so you might want to think about wrapping this up. I’m ready to go.”

They all got ready and Jim rode with his dad and let Blair take Jonah home. They were all going to meet up at Saccony’s for dinner. Jim and William got there first and got their table and waited for Blair, who got there about 20 minutes later.

“God, I’m telling you, he’s whiny.” Blair stated a fact they all knew it to be truth.

They all ordered drinks and relaxed and looked over the menu. Blair looked across the room and saw them sitting Jonah at a table for one or two. “Oh man, we can’t leave him over there eating all alone, can we?”

“My vote says yes.” Jim said very uncharitably.

“Come on, man, let’s let him join us. He doesn’t even see us yet.”

William said, “Don’t you find it odd that he knew where we were?”

“Not really, he told me the other day that he loved this place.” Blair explained.

“Well, if you feel strongly about it, invite him over.” William finally said and saw the look of sadness spread across Jim’s face.

“Do you mind, Jim?”

“You know what? I’m not really hungry, I’m going to leave.”

Jim stood up to go and Blair said, “It’s okay, man, sit down. I won’t ask him. I know you don’t like him but I didn’t think things were that bad.”

William decided to bring this around to something better and said, “Boys, how would you like to join me and Steven for Christmas dinner?

“Well, I’m sure Jim would love to, but I think Jonah is going to be all alone for Christmas so I’m going to spend it with him, I guess.” Blair looked sad about turning down William.

“Go ahead and ask him over for dinner.” Jim said quietly.

“Right now?” Blair asked.

“Yeah, I’m sorry I was being such a shit.”

Blair got up and brought Jonah back to the table. “It’s really nice of you all to allow me to join you. Don’t you love this place? I’ve been here like four times in three days.”

“So you’ve been in Cascade for awhile?” William asked.

“Well, I got here about four days before I got a hold of Blair. That’s when the hotel ran out. But of course now I have a new place to stay so I’ll be here until Christmas, if Blair will have me.”

William kicked Jim under the table and Jim said, “Ow.”

“What’s wrong, man?” A worried Blair asked.

“I just got a Charlie horse, you know how they sneak up on you. Jonah, how would you like to have Christmas dinner at my Dad’s house?” Jim asked even though it killed him. Blair smiled across the table as a thank you making Jim feel like he’d done the right thing.

“That would be nice, but I think Blair and I have plans.”

Jim didn’t like the way he planned things without asking Blair. “Blair, do you have plans?”

“Not that I knew about. Jonah, I would like to go to William’s house for dinner. It’ll be nice to be around family again.” Blair left no room for discussion.

They ordered their dinner and had great food and conversation, mostly from Blair, and Jim had a good time being with Blair.

After William paid the bill Jim said, “Thanks, Dad, it was great.”

“Yes, thank you, William.” Blair said.

“I thank you from the bottom of my heart for the dinner and the dinner invitation for Christmas.” Jonah said.

Jim thought he would have to run to the bathroom and gag. Jonah was such a kiss-ass bullshitter.

Jim stood up and said, “Dad, can you give me a ride home?”

“Well, what about your truck?” William asked trying to get the boys together somehow.

“Blair knows how to drive the truck, he’ll be just fine. I’ll see you at home, Chief.”

“Okay, thanks. I’ll run Jonah to the hotel and then I’ll be home. I want to check out my ornaments again. Tell your Dad about them on the way home.”

They all said goodnight to each other and left for the evening.

Once inside his father’s car, Jim said, “What possessed you to have me invite that dip shit to your house?”

“Because that dip shit is going to slip up one of these times and I want to be around when he does. We know he was in town for days before he saw Blair, but yet he led Blair to believe that he had just arrived. He came early to check you out, Jimmy. I bet Blair told him all about you in his letters and he had to check out the bigger than life roommate that Blair talked about nonstop.”

“Since when are you so open to gay relationships?” Jim finally asked.

“I think I would rather have a son that’s gay then no son at all. Jimmy, I ruined your life when you were young and I don’t expect you to forgive me, but I am sorry.”

“Thanks, Dad. That means a lot to me. I’m wild about Blair, but I don’t think he knows I’m alive.”

“He knows, Jimmy, he’s scared, just like you are. One of you two is going to have to take that first step. Well, here we are. You have a good night, son. We’ll talk to you soon and see you on Christmas.”

Jim leaned across and hugged his Dad and said, “Thank you for everything, Dad. You’re a life saver.”

Jim walked into the building feeling a little bit better about himself. He decided he had a little time, so he was going to call Conner and ask her a couple of questions.

He walked into the loft and saw the light blinking on the phone. He didn’t want to listen to it, because he knew that it would be bad news. But he knew he had to listen, so he pushed play and stood there waiting.

Hey Jim, it’s me. I’m going to have a few drinks with Jonah, so I’m going to sleep on his sofa in the suite. I just didn’t want you to worry. Good night.”

Jim sat down on the sofa and didn’t know what to think about this. Would Blair be spending the night in the same bed, or would he be using his sofa? There is a difference after all, Ellison.

Jim got up and called Conner.


“Conner, has Blair ever said anything to you about me? Or better yet about having feelings towards me?”

”Of course he has, you moron. Geeze, I swear you two are never going to get together if I don’t come over there and push you. Where is Sandy?”

“He’s having a few drinks with Jonah and spending the night on his sofa.”

”March over there and get him. I’m serious. Just knock on the door and yank his ass out of that hotel room.”

“What if he’s doing something I don’t want to know about?”

”Ellison, get your ass over there and tell him you love him.”

“Okay, I’ll do it. Thanks, Conner.”

”No problem. Let me know tomorrow at work if things worked out all right.”

Jim hung up the phone and put his jacket back on and walked over to the hotel. He knew what he had to do.

When he arrived at the hotel, he asked them to call the room. They did and Jonah answered the phone.

“What do you want?”

“I need to speak to Blair.”

“He’s already sacked out for the night. He’ll talk to you tomorrow.” And just like that, Jonah hung up the phone.

Jim flashed his badge to the girl behind the counter and found out that Jonah was in room 323 and he was off on his mission. He was going to get his man if it killed both of them.

Outside of 323, he knocked on the door and Jonah answered, “Get a grip, Ellison. Blair can be away from you for one day.”

Jim pushed Jonah aside and walked in, there was no Blair. “Where is he?” Then Jim listened and heard no familiar heartbeat. “I repeat, where is he?”

“We had an argument and he said he was taking the bus home. He’s such a baby.”

“You have no idea what he’s like anymore. You knew a young Blair Sandburg ten years ago, but now he’s a man. He’s a good man and don’t say anything bad about him again.” Having said that, he turned and walked out of the room.

“He’ll never get over us. That’s what the fight was over.” Jonah called out, but Jim was already in the stairway. He walked out front and sure enough, there was Blair sitting on the bench by the bus stop.

“Want some candy, little boy?” Jim said laughing, causing Blair to laugh too.

“What are you doing here?” Blair asked quickly.

“I came to tell you that I love you.”

“I know you do, man. I love you too.”

Jim frowned and said, “Not that kind of love, babe. I love, love you. As in I lust you.”

“You’re kidding? What brought this on? Are you just jealous of all the time I was spending with Jonah? I don’t love him anymore, I don’t think I ever did. I lust you too.”

“Then why are we sitting here talking about it instead of doing something about it?” Jim asked as he pulled Blair into his arms.

“Let’s go home.” Jim suggested.

“Can I tell you something?” Blair asked.

“You can tell me anything you want.”

“I loved when you made the Joni Mitchell jokes. I had to bite the inside of my cheek to keep from laughing out loud. You’re a riot when you’re jealous.” Blair pulled Jim down for a quick kiss.

“I’ll tell you I was killing Christmas carols right and left because he pissed me off.”

“Don’t worry about him anymore, man. Things will be just fine. And by the way, he’s not going to your dad’s house for dinner on the 25th.”

“Good, because I would end up kicking his ass and I’m getting too old to kick someone’s ass because I’m jealous. Don’t you think?”

“I think you look good, not too old at all.”

“Where did you park the truck, anyhow?” Jim asked.

Blair pointed in the direction of the parking lot and they were off.

They got into the truck and Blair slid over next to Jim. Jim put his arm around Blair and they were quite comfortable together.

“Have you been with a lot of guys, Jim?”

Not since Carolyn, I didn’t want her to find out and be more hurt than she already was. So it’s been awhile.”

“It’s been about five years for me, so we’re going to take things slow I think.” Blair advised.

“Can I at least suck you off tonight?” Jim asked blushing.

“Oh yeah, you could at least do that.” Blair began to snicker hysterically.

“You all right, Chief?”

“I’m just nervous. This is more than just sex. This is friendship that could go wrong and I don’t want it to.”

“Before I forget, you have to give the necklace back to Jonah. I don’t want anything of his on you.”

“Got ya. I’ll give it to him tomorrow at the bullpen. I’ll call him and tell him to come and pick it up.”

“I bought you one for Christmas, but he was watching me and went in and got one ahead of me.”

“You’re kidding? You bought me one of those? I wanted one from you.”

“Okay, we’ll go and get it tomorrow or the next day. It probably just burns Jonah up that he didn’t get to square one. Did he?”

“Stop it. He didn’t get to any square. Stop worrying, I’m all yours.”

Jim parked the truck and they began to make-out in the truck.

Blair finally pulled away and said, “Come on, we get to do more fun stuff upstairs. Race ya.”

And just like that Blair was running out the door and into the building. Jim knew he was going to need vitamins to keep up with this guy. But his dad didn’t raise no dummies, he raced for the loft too. He rushed in and slammed the door and said, “Honey, I’m home.”

Blair came running out of the bathroom and jumped into Jim’s arms. “I love you, big guy.”

“Upstairs, hot shot, we’re not going to do this against the door.”

And again, Blair went running like crazy for the loft bedroom, stripping as he ran. Jim smiled and followed him upstairs.

Jim started stripping while he watched Blair and all of his blood went to his cock. “You look really nice, Chief. Really nice.”

“So do you. Now how about a ‘69’ position for tonight. I don’t think I could last very long for anything else.

Jim began to kiss Blair and moved him closer and closer to the bed. When their legs touched the side, they both leaned into the nice soft mattress. Jim flipped Blair easily and began to kiss the insides of his thighs. Before long he started giving little love bites there too. Blair was very impressed and began to do the same thing to Jim. Before long both men took the other’s cock into their mouths and began a rhythm of sucking and humming. Jim slid one of his fingers inside his mouth to get wet and then put that in Blair’s anus. That was all she wrote. Blair threw back his head and shouted “Jim.” Once he settled down again, Blair took Jim back in his mouth and did the very same thing. And just like Blair, he came immediately, throwing his head back and howling, “Blair.”

Jim lay there quietly just licking and kissing Blair’s cock until he started coming back for business. “You’re going to be the death of me, Chief.”

Blair turned around and said, “I want to cuddle. I don’t want to come again so soon, it takes too long the second time. I’d rather cuddle and have sex in the morning. Is that all right?”

“It’s more than all right.” Jim said kissing Blair deeply, letting him know how much he meant to the larger man.

“That was good, Chief.”

“Yes, it was. Can’t wait till morning and we can have our first morner.”

Jim gave a puzzled look and said, “Morner?”

“It’s like a nooner, only sooner.” Blair laughed and so did Jim. “Jim, do you think Jonah’s going to be any trouble for us?”

“I don’t think so; he looked more pissed off, than hurt. He’s just pissed because you chose me.” Jim smiled at the thought.

As Blair curled into Jim’s arms even more he asked, “So you got me a pendant and chain too?”

“Yes, I picked it out. He’s a cheap copy, Blair.”

“Well, I’m sure it wasn’t cheap, so I hope he learned the hard way.” Both men snickered at that.

“So did you really love the ornaments?”

“Yeah, I wanted to fuck you right then and there, but I didn’t think it would be nice in front of company. You are a very romantic man, Jim Ellison. I love you.”

“I have a little surprise for you.” Jim said smiling.

“More than this?”

“Yes, I got you the other Harley Davidson ornaments you had wanted. They’re in my closet that is soon to be our closet. We’ll hang them up tomorrow. Merry Christmas, Blair.”

“Merry Christmas, Jim. Can we do this every night and say that same thing?” Blair wondered aloud.

“Hell yes. Now I need my sleep because you said we’re going to have a morner. I don’t want to be a slacker.”

“Good night, big guy. I lust you.”

“Good night, Chief. I lust you too.”

This was going to be fun.

The end

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Acknowledgments: Thank you to Mary for the beta.